As I stepped away from my total frustration with computers and the Internet I found myself in the middle of a breakthrough. Instead of expecting perfection out of myself, I let it go. I did not give up, I just let it go for the moment. I accepted that in one months time I would not be able to learn everything I want to know to get to my Internet goals. Fellow perfectionists know exactly what I mean. We drive ourselves batty with this stuff. My guess is that we drive everyone around us a little batty with it as well. Just a guess!!
The breakthrough was exciting, fun and exhilarating. When one thing does not work, try another, The ongoing headbanging with endless bruises obviously is not working. Does not mean we are giving up on our goals, just means there might be something blocking those goals that we need to deal with. My block must be huge because I usually can figure out computer/Internet stuff. As I walked away from the computer I asked for peace and a different route to get to my goals. I know that my path is spot on for my life but sometimes the routes I take are not.